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Well i'm sad to say that this will likely be my last post on "Why not, everyone else is". I am happy to say though that "Why Not Vr. 2.0" has gone live and my first post is up there. Please head on over to http://www.thecrazytreepeople.com/modules/wordpress/ and leave me a comment. Let me know what you think about the setup and what have you. If it appears to suck i can change it, or even if need be revert back to blogspot.

peace and God bless
SJ

Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of something other then what I'm doing right now

First off, sorry it took so long to get a new post up. I started to write it once and I had some computer problems (I know, it's probably ironic, me having computer problems. But it does happen) I've got one written now, though it's probably diffrent then what I would have written a couple of days ago. I will also apologize for the length, and the seriousness. It's once again approaching Joshian lengths, and I haven't had a purley fun post in a while. But with out further ado, here is your update on the world that is Scott.

Well I'm sure some of you know that I've not been all that happy at work as of late. If you've never worked for the government it's hard to describe. It's defiantly not anything like working in the “real world”. In my chain of command there is my supervisor, the section head, then the branch head. Or at least that's basically the way it's supposed to work. Now my supervisor, and the branch head are both military, and both change semi-regularly. As most of you who read this probably already know I do not get a long with my new supervisor at all. We've been butting heads since his first day here. And our current branch head, though I hear he is 28, acts like he's 17. He's supposed to be in charge of around 50 people, though you would never guess it from the way he acts.

This being the government there is a lot of political BS that goes on, and I'm getting tired of it. Combine that with not liking some of the people I work with, and most of the management that I have to deal with and you get a Scott who's not liking his job to much. Those aren't the only factors though. Last year in faithworks I started to receive some revelation on some God things that I am fully convinced are in my future. I don't yet know how that's going to manifest it's self, but even that has started to clarify a bit in the last 6 months. I am not willing to just walk away from this job though. Up until recently I've enjoyed it, and the money is good. Better then anywhere else in Medicine Hat I could be working doing what I do.

I believe the first step is for me to find someone to train up in Satellite to take over for me. Once that is done I will be able to step down, thus freeing up 2 nights a week for me to begin working on other things. Or more likely for the first bit to relax a little, and maybe get more of a social life. Maybe work on that finding a GF thing I should get around to some time soon. But in the end I need to start taking some steps forward. As Pastor Al was preaching about this week, if you don't step out of the boat then you'll never walk on the water. So here's to Scott trying to make some fairly major life changes, and starting to do a little stepping out of the boat.

I would also like to just give a shout out to all the great people that I call friends, new and old. Your all great, and I'm glad of having met all of you.

Peace and God Bless
SJ

Not sure what to call it

Well I've been told I need to write a new blog, and I've been thinking I should just not known what to write about. Still not sure what I'm going to write about, but I might start with a bit of an update on the crazy that is Scott, and see were it goes from there.

I'm not really sure were to start, but probably with my nephew Dylan. Most of you don't know him, or know much about him, but he has been having some problems the last week or so. He has a shunt in his head that prevents or relieves pressure that builds up in his head. He has had problems with it in the past and has had brain surgery a number of times to have it repaired or replaced. The week before last he went into the hospital because of pain and pressure and it was decided that they would have to operate again, so he my mom and sister took him to Calgary Wednesday or Thursday of the week before last. Mom ended coming home early because she was having chest pains, and problems breathing. Around Friday she went to Emergency to get it checked out, she was basically told that the pain is because of the problems with her back (A whole other story that involves 20+ year old injuries, botched surgery, and crooked doctors). They ran a couple of tests and then basically told her she has to live with it. The pain get getting worse, and it wasn't like the pain she normally has from her back problems, or her rheumatic arthritis, so she went to emergency again. This time they told her it might be her gallbladder and sent her for an ultrasound, and then sent her home. That didn't turn anything up, and the paint continued to worsen. Monday I think it was she went into emerg for the 3rd time and told them that she wasn't leaving the hospital until they told her what was wrong with her. A different doctor happened to be on that night and he ordered a bunch of tests that were different then the other guy had run. These ones included chest xrays and a few others things. Which found that she has multiple clots in her lungs. I don't think they ever told her how many and if it's both lungs or just one, but she was admitted to the hospital Tuesday last week. For those who have seen me around town at weird times that why. I told work I was taking the rest of the week off so that I could visit mom, and help dad out with the 4 kids. For the most part she has been not to bad all things considered (Dad read that there is something like a 20% fatality rate for people who this happens to) Yesterday (Monday) they decided that she could be handled just as well as an out patient, and that she might be more comfortable at home so they released her. She gets more tests done Wednesday, and a visit to the doc on Friday to find out what's going on. Combine that with a general lack of sleep, and the other more mundane stresses that go with being a member of the human race and I've been a bit mentally fatigued the last little bit. I haven't talked about it a whole bunch because I'm not looking for a pity party, or a bunch of sympathy. Obviously I won't say no to prayer, but everyone has there problems and I'm not going to let mine rule my life. I'm still going to have fun with my friends, I'm still going to be there for any of them who need me. And I'm certainly not going to back down from the plans God has for me.

One of the things that I grabbed ahold of the last couple of days listening to Ferg speak was the power of God. Not just the power of God, but that the power of God is on ME. I don't know how it's going to manifest yet, but I was given some limited vision of Gods plans for me in faithworks last year and I think it's time to start taking some steps towards that. It's not time to let the challenges before me stop me, might be time to gear down as Pastor Al would say in order to gain more power for the uphill clime. It's not time to be timid, or afraid. "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control." As much as I talk, and as aggressive as I've been feeling I'm not a violent individual, but my destiny, and the destiny of my friends, family, and even the destiny of those strangers would would be called my neighbours is worth fighting for.

Maybe it's late and I'm tired, maybe I had some good thoughts but need to get some God thoughts. But this is how I'm feeling, and this is what I want to strive for. So don't feel sad for me, or pity me and my family. Take heart that my mom can still joke with me about the games she plays online, or that she is still giving me a hard time for not having fixed her friends computer yet. And please, feel free to give me a kick in the ass if you think I need it. Cause I know I need it some times, and I promise I won't punch you in the face, not unless I can prove you kicked me for no good reason :P

But it's time for me to bring this post to a close as I am quickly approaching Joshian lengths

Peace and God Bless
SJ

Tattoos, Hand Guns, and Scott going over the edge

Well I decided to write another blog, this one having nothing to do with animation, or rendering, or any of that stuff.

Now regardless of what the title says I'm not actually going over the edge. However, I think there are some people who think I might be, or at least think I'm close. I'm going to try and explain a bit, were I don't think I've done such a great job.

I'm not totally sure were to start, so I will talk about the first part of the title. As I'm sure most you know I want to buy a gun. And as most of you also know I also want to get my tattoo finished. Currently I don't think I'll be able to afford both. So, I've been thinking that maybe I would postpone my tattoo completion in favor of buying a gun. This actually may tie into the rest of the blog in that me wanting a gun may be part of what has some people worried about me.

Now, not that I don't appreciate the fact that I have friends who care enough to worry, I don't think me becoming violent unnecessarily is something anyone has to worry about. It's true I'm aggressive You can talk to Ed or Ian. I've been like this a pretty long time. I don't think how ever that I've ever been a particularly violent individual. I am of the opinion how ever that violence/aggression is some times the only option to resolve a situation.

Now I need to regress a bit as I'm starting to ramble and loose my train of thought. The idea for this blog started a day or two ago while I was chatting with Connie, and I made a concerted effort to explain to her my feelings of wanting to punch someone in the face. And to be honest with you, that's not it at all really. Saying I want to punch someone in the face is more of just a joking way of explaining that I'm feeling aggressive I don't think I've ever actually hit anyone in the face. Been in a couple of scraps, but none of them were that bad. But I'm digressing again. Now I don't want to over spiritualize things, but I am positive that a lot of what I'm feeling is in the spirit realm. There is so much apathy and other crap on the Nation of Canada that it makes me sick some days. While at the same time I let that get all over my own life. This also pisses me off. Combine all of that with a naturally aggressive personality (I'm a man, I like danger, and adventure, all that other good stuff), the stresses of every day life, and a few other factors, and you end up with a Scott that wants to punch something or someone in the face.

I'm hoping this helps to alleviate some worry, or maybe it just causes more, but either way I hope it brings some incite into the life that is Scott.

Peace and God bless

SJ

Geek

Well it's time for some of the geek in my to come out in my semi frequent "art" I started working on a new render/animation. This time i'm going to be doing a light saber. I have the basic handle done which you can see below. I need to finish coloring/texturing it, then figure out how to add the blade. Once I have that part done I am going to try and do an animation of the saber lighting like in the movie. If I get real ambitious maybe even some sound effects, but I won't hold my breath on that part.

Yeh

Time for another update from the wonderful world of Scott's rendering. Here is a still from my first animation. And if you go to http://i115.photobucket.com/albums/n311/fotowca/Mine.gif then you can see a low res version of the animation it's self.

Nothing much to add. But here is another belnder render. This is my dice. Eventually I would like to right a program that will let you roll it. But don't know how long that will take. Prolly going ot make some more stuff today if I am board enough. if so i'll add it onto the end of this post.














I'm lazy so i'm going to just add this image onto this post. And tommorow I should be adding an animated dice. Not to the programing part yet. but going to tackle animation.